BLOUNT BASEMENT

Just left the 9:30 club in D.C. I Performed “Capital Music” with Kinpen Slim.  Wale and Bun B.  were supposed to show up, but that didnt seem to happen…. I feel bad for the people that payed $35 to see Bun B….. Whatever, at least they got to see me :)

Crowd wasnt too thick, but I havent been on stage in a minute so it was cool.  I remember back when I used to be nervous to get on stage….. Damn time sure flies, I havent really been on stage in a good 6 months, but It’s just like riding a bike.  Once you realize that you are in control, it all makes sense.

I used to watch the faces of the people in the crowd when I performed.  After every other note or run I’d look around to see if I had gained approval.  My performance was only fueled by the response I was getting.  It was always a performance based on reaction from those that I was supposed to be giving something to react about.

One day I realized…. fuck their reaction!  Its my stage, I need to bring people to my level.  They need to feed off of my energy…. react the way I want them to react.   I mean, that’s why people come to watch you perform anyway right?  They want you to give them something to react about.  Not the other way around…..

Thing is, thats the way life works.  If you want to be a leader you cant want for a reaction from the crowd to fuel your passion….. Nope, you have to believe in your passion and cause even if you stand on stage alone.  Draw people to you, give them a reason to listen, and have faith that they will eventually feel you.

That’s just my two cents

Doing my song writing thing tonight.  Any topics you want to hear about?  I’ve got writer’s block today.  Give me some good stuff and I promise to post the song/songs when I’m done.  My style is kinda soul/r&b and I’ve been in my Marvin Gaye vibe lately.  What do you want me to write about?

26 years old and I’m finally learning to trust my gut.  I wish I had started this trend years ago.  It’s easy to sit there and say, “duh, of course you should trust your gut.” but It’s not really always that easy.  We often allow the objectives and motives of those around us to cloud our own vision.  Next thing we know we look up and we don’t have a vision anymore.  Just broken pieces of dreams laying on a road that someone else paved.

Well from now on my path is gonna be carved out with my own shovel.  Sure, I’ll take constructive criticism from time to time, but I’ll take it with a grain of salt.  I never wanna look back when I’m old and wish that I could go back and do it all again. At the end of the day I only answer to myself and God.

World…..gimme my balls back!